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Today, I was falling asleep on my desk, my head on my fist. My elbow slipped off the edge of the desk and I punched myself, leaving a fist mark on my cheek. At school, people think my parents hit me. My parents think I'm getting bullied at school. No one believes the actual story. FML

Today, I had just finished writing an essay for English. I was proud of it and thought it was one of my best works. I decided to show it to my mom, who is an English major. She read it, turned to me and said, "You know, if you actually want to go to UCLA, you're going to need to actually try." FML

Today, we got our results for our final grade English paper on which I worked my butt off on, and also which I let my best-friend copy off from. I received a E- and two detentions for plagiarism. My friend got a A minus. All she said was "oh well, at least you tried your best". FML

Today, I was turned down for a job as a cashier at Best Buy. I worked like hell to get into and then graduate from one of the top Telecommunication schools in the country. I spent all my time with extracurriculars to help my resume instead of partying like my friends. I can't even be a cashier. FML

Today, I attended a focus group. Since I've been unemployed for a month now I thought the $60 would come in handy. By the time I finished someone had broken into my car, stole my GPS and MP3 player. FML

Today, my boyfriend of 7 years broke up with me in a text message. Then I found out from a mutual friend that he "came out" and told everyone at our school that he is gay. He has known he was gay for years and he was just using me as a cover up. What a great way to start my senior year. FML

Today, I received a rejection letter from a company I interviewed with three weeks ago. They didn't mention giving my $200 portfolio back. Guess I'll keep using my 4-year degree to wait tables. FML

Today, I got a paper back that was given a zero for suspected plagiarism. Everything I wrote was my own thought and analysis. My instructor basically thinks my paper is smarter than I am. He won't listen, even when I explain my thought processes throughout the piece. FML
Today, I found out that I'm 8 weeks pregnant. Tomorrow, I'm supposed to be leaving for Paris with my college abstinence group for a year. FML

Today, I was trying to write an essay for school while sleep deprived. After getting 7 pages into it, I crashed face-first onto the keyboard and slept for 20 minutes. When I woke up, my essay was nothing more than a blank document. My face had been pressing the Backspace button the entire time. FML

Today, I asked my father for some help paying my college tuition. He told me he'd help me after I become more accredited than he is. My father has 2 PHDs. I'm studying to be an elementary school teacher. FML


Today, I was texting while making dinner. I went to pour the noodles into the boiling water and I dropped my phone in. Not thinking, I went to retreive it from the water. I now have a completely useless phone and a useless hand. FML

Today, I finally filed the divorce papers I was putting off for weeks. This is my third divorce. After my first husband cheated on me, and my second husband and I learned we had VERY different views, now my third husband is cheating on me with his fiancee. I'm a marriage counselor. FML

Today, I was reading my students' Halloween stories I made them write for my creative writing class in high school. One of my students wrote about attacking me. She got my street address perfect and everything. FML

Today, I returned home for the first time in a year, and found my entire computer missing. I asked my grandma about this, and she told me that she threw "the TV" away because it "no longer responded to the remote control." FML

Today, I got bailed out of jail. I was there because I saw a girl being hit by her boyfriend. I rushed over to help only to have her hit me repeatedly. The cops came and she blamed her bruises on me. The boyfriend corroborated her story. FML

Today, I learned I have over $10,000 in debt, despite never owning a credit card. Apparently, my ex-roommate had been replying to the credit card offers I was receiving in the mail. That also explains my missing driver's license a few months back. FML

Today, I went for a run in a new pair of shoes that left me with huge blisters. As I finished cleaning them up so they could heal, I limped to my bed to take a nap. I was woken by the fire alarm. My building was having a drill and we couldn't use the elevators. I live on the 9th floor. FML

SOTW #30 Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks

Holy shit great song and damn catchy. Listen to the lyrics though, you might rethink liking the song then.

W00t, Go Herman...

Herman Cain's thank you video to supporters and activists

To all those who think Rick Perry has this locked up...

Remember where we were at this point in 2007, from a DailyKos post last week


A couple of the nationwide polls:

Sept. 7-10, 2007: (NBC News)
Rudy Giuliani 32%, Fred Thompson 26%, John McCain 14%, Mitt Romney 11%, Mike Huckabee 4%, Ron Paul 2%, Sam Brownback 1%, Duncan Hunter 1%, Tom Tancredo 1%, None (vol.) 2%, Unsure 6%

Sept. 6-14, 2007: (Harris)
Fred Thompson 32%, Rudy Giuliani 28%, John McCain 11%, Mitt Romney 9%, Newt Gingrich 7%, Ron Paul 3%, Mike Huckabee 3%, Duncan Hunter 2%, Sam Brownback 2%, Tom Tancredo 1%, Chuck Hagel 0%

So if we take the national polls seriously, it sure looks like either Fred Thompson or Rudy Giuliani have the presidential nomination all sewn up in September, 2007! It's impossible that John McCain, who after all had huge fundraising problems and lost both his campaign manager and chief strategist in July of 2007, could be a real contender.

A few statewide polls at this same time four years ago:

Iowa: (Huckabee won the Iowa caucus on 1/3/08)
Sept. 6-10, 2007, LA Times/Bloomberg poll:
Mitt Romney 28%, Rudy Giuliani 16%, Fred Thompson 16%, Mike Huckabee 8%, John McCain 7%, Tom Tancredo 3%, Ron Paul 2%, Sam Brownback 2%, Duncan Hunter 1%, Undecided 15%

That's right, Huckabee won the Iowa caucus and he was in fourth place with 8 percent less than four months before.

New Hampshire: (John McCain won on 1/8/08)
Sept. 6-10, 2007, LA Times/Bloomberg poll:
Mitt Romney 28%, Rudy Giuliani 23%, John McCain 12%, Fred Thompson 11%, Mike Huckabee 6%, Ron Paul 5%, Sam Brownback 2%, Undecided 13%

McCain won and he was in third place with 12 percent at this time in 2007.

South Carolina: (John McCain won on 1/19/08)

Sept. 6-10, 2007, LA Times/Bloomberg poll:
Fred Thompson 26%, Rudy Giuliani 23%, John McCain 15%, Mitt Romney 9%, Mike Huckabee 6%, Ron Paul 2%, Tom Tancredo 1%, Sam Brownback 1%, Duncan Hunter 1%, Undecided 13%

John McCain won this one too even though he was also in third place, but to a different lineup at this time in 2007.

Moral of the story is don't count your GOP candidates before they're primaried. It's early yet to be making any final predictions.

Which is what will make this such a fun fall.

Enjoy the season,

my 9/11 story

Ok so I don’t know exactly how long and rambling this is going to be but with the 10th anniversary of 9/11 coming up I felt I had to finally write, in depth, about what that day did to me and how it changed my life forever. I don’t mean to be over-dramatic but in some sense part of me died that day (not literally, I didn’t know anyone that was killed, thank God) and my life has never been the same since. If you had known me before September 11th 2001 and met me now, you probably would be hard pressed to believe I am the same person. Let me start from the beginning, the day that changed me, and the world, forever.
I remember it as a bright sunny day, I had just quit being on my 9th grade soccer team because I was bitter about not getting the playing time I felt I deserved and I was still kind of reeling from a really embaressing game that the Vikings played on that previous Sunday, it was the first game I had attended in person since the 1998 season and we lost to the Carolina Panthers (it would be their only win that season). I remember my dad dropping me off, I was loving school at the time. I was just into my third week of high school and was enjoying not having to wear a uniform every freaking day, the freedom (and ok the way the girls dressed too) was awesome. I went to my first period class, Advanced Spanish I, and went to homeroom where I waited for the morning announcements. Keep in mind this was about 8:50am CST so at this point both planes had already hit the towers and I was totally clueless then. I still had some innocence left in me. The announcement came across the speakers that we were all dismissed to the cafeteria to watch what was going on. In retrospect it was amazing because my dad said that as he was leaving the parking lot where he dropped me off for school he heard about the first tower being hit. That minute changed my morning.
Anyway I remember that this past summer there was this show I was watching on CNN that said something about this terrorist group and how they might want to use planes to attack the USA. Apparently it had been plotted before but the plans were broken up. The first words out of my mouth after I saw this were, “I have three words for this, Osama Bin Laden” people looked at me weird but even back then I didn’t really care. At about 9:07am CST the bell rung for us to go to our next class. Right as we were leaving I thought I saw part of one tower collapsed but when I got to the next class I found out it had gone down completely. My IPS (Intro to Physical Science) teacher tried to get us to pay attention to our lesson plan, we were persistent about leaving the TV on so we agreed to leave it on but leave it on mute. I tried to look and concentrate on the problems but it was no use. A little while later, maybe about 15 minutes, I hear one of my classmates gasp. I look up and see the second tower in the middle of collapsing. I turned and saw the look of my classmates face who was sitting next to me and I cannot describe the look, but it will be burned into my memory until the day I die. Then reports come in about the Pentagon being hit and a plane and a plane crash somewhere in Pennslyvania. The next thing I remember was lunch and us discussing where they would hit next. I was convinced it wasn’t over but thank God it was. But obviously the damage was already done.
The rest of the day I was numb, hell I was numb for weeks even months. I remember coming home and not being sad but being pissed. I wanted to know who did this and I wanted to go and kill them myself (this would be important to me later on, but I’ll get to that later). I think I did some homework that night but I can’t be sure. Like I said I was numb. Of course the baseball games were going to be postponed that night but what came the next day I was really unprepared for. All football games that weekend, college and pro, were to be cancelled and all baseball games until at least Thursday (I believe they didn’t start playing until next Monday but I cannot remember exactly). This may not seem like a big deal to you or the average person but it was life-altering, literally, for me. I loved sports (I still do, but have dialed it back a lot) and little else. Sports was everything in my life I really had literally no other interests at that point in my life (except girls, like any other healthy 15 year old male). Watching and playing sports, that was pretty much it for me K-8 and for 3 weeks into 9th grade. Now I had nothing to watch. The Sports Illustrated the week after aptly put it ‘the week that sports stood still’. I later found out in some e-mails my mom wrote to her friend in NYC that she was getting pretty concerned about me in the weeks after but had no idea what to do. I was all consumed in this tragedy, I didn’t know what else to do, I felt I had to. Like it was my duty as an American to watch and learn as much as I could about this so I would know what to expect in the coming weeks and months as this was sure to happen again. We were going to become like Israel, expecting terrorist attacks a few times a year.
As I sit here and write this on September 1, 2011, if you had told me on September 12th 2001 that nearly 10 years to the day after the attacks that we would not have suffered another major terrorist attack on US soil I would have said you are not only nuts, but probably should be locked up. This was going to happen again (by the way I still believe that, it is only a matter of time, we can’t be perfect forever) and soon and frequently. In this aspect I had a very odd reaction to this, I found every book I could find about nuclear and bio terrorism and started reading them. Since this was the next logical step I figured I better read about the possibilities and prepare. By early 2002 I was what you could call an amateur “expert” on anything terror related. This also led to another inevitability, my venture into politics.
I remember bits and pieces about politics pre-9/11 mostly the Monica Lewinski scandel and the 2000 election mess. Other than that I didn’t give a damn about politics. Now I started to follow them. My loyalties still didn’t lie anywhere yet but this reaction to the tragedy and hearing what leaders from both parties said helped me decide. One side was saying that we needed to understand our new enemies and figure out why they hate us. This pissed me off to no end hearing that. We did not need to understand and figure out our enemies, they are our enemies, we need to go, find, and eliminate them. Needless to say I did become a fan of W after this. I know it sounds lame but he was a big part of helping me heal. I shutter to think about what President Gore would have done. But that’s alternate history and never happened.
As the date draws nearer I still haven’t recovered and I never will. I look at all the kids out there today, especially those under 10 and feel sorry for them. I had the honor of spending most of my years growing up in a decade of peace and prosperity, something that had not happened in this country since the 1920’s. From the fall of the USSR (1991) to 9/11 there were very little in actual attacks on the United States. It seems that may be part of what caused 9/11, we have become victims of our own success and I fear that it may be happening again. It is only a matter of time before terrorists have a major successful attack that could be much worse. Hopefully we won’t allow that to happen but we have been able to prevent attacks, unlike say Spain, Bali, London, so far so that gives me hope.
It seems that this will be a never-ending battle. What a lot of people in this country don’t understand is that a significant number of people in this world are indoctrinated into hating Jews, Americans, and Christians and no amount of talking to them will convince them otherwise. They need to be killed because you cannot talk any sense into these people and until these people are gone we, as a nation, remain at risk.
Finally as I write the close of this on September 11, 2011, I am sitting here watching the History Channel play a special that is literally just home movies of people capturing that day first hand. It is so much more dramatic and personal than the news accounts of that day because these are just everyday people reacting to the tragedy as it unfolded around them. Let us never forget those who were lost or the horror of that day. Anytime you think our overseas involvement isn’t worth it just watch a video of people jumping from either tower. That is why we are over there. We didn’t start this (I don’t care what people say) but we will end it. And if people think we are ‘islamophobic’ now just wait until the next attack. We are a tolerant people but remember what happened after Pearl Harbor? The internment camps? It could happen again. You piss us off enough and you will feel the wrath of the most powerful country in the world.

SOTW #31-Randy Newman - Political Science

Old one but still true. Screw the world.

coming soon to a city near you...

If liberals and anarchists get organized pictures like this will soon be seen in NYC, LA, Miami, Chicago, Kansas City, (you get the idea)...

Gay Marriage debate...

Lets compare the pro-gay marriage side...


versus the pro-traditional marriage side...

Bad news electorally for Obama...

181 ELECTORAL VOTES

COOK POLITICAL REPORT ELECTORAL COLLEGE VOTING RATINGS
Solid Dem (15 states)	Likely Dem (1 states)	Lean Dem (5 states)	Toss Up (6 states)	Lean Rep (2 states)	Likely Rep (2 states)	Solid Rep (20 states)
California (55) Connecticut (7) Delaware (3) Hawaii (4) Illinois (20) Maine (4) Maryland (10) Mass'setts (11) New Jersey (14) New York (29) Oregon (7) Rhode Island (4) Vermont (3) Washington (12) Dist. of Col. (3)	New Mexico (5)	Michigan (16) Minnesota (10) New Hamp. (4) Pennsylvania (20) Wisconsin (10)	Colorado (9) Florida (29) Iowa (6) Nevada (6) Ohio (18) Virginia (13)	Missouri (10) North Car. (15)	Arizona (11) Indiana (11)	Alabama (9) Alaska (3) Arkansas (6) Georgia (16) Idaho (4) Kansas (6) Kentucky (8) Louisiana (8) Miss'ppi (6) Montana (3) Nebraska (5) North Dak. (3) Oklahoma (7) South Car. (9) South Dak. (3) Tennessee (11) Texas (38) Utah (6) West Virg. (5) Wyoming (3)
186 E.V.	5 E.V.	60 E.V.	81 E.V.	25 E.V.	22 E.V.	159 E.V.
191 ELECTORAL VOTES		270 ELECTORAL VOTES NEEDED TO WIN
251 ELECTORAL VOTES				206 ELECTORAL VOTES

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SOTW #... I forgot Theory of a Deadman - Lowlife

This is the better music video

very demotivational Wednesday's...

back again...

why I support Herman Cain...

He is the real deal folks, and finally even the Gallup poll is noticing...

Positive intensity ranking: #1 out of all GOP candidates or potential candidates polled.
Positive intensity score (strongly favorable-strongly unfavorable): 26.
Strongly favorable: 26 percent (highest out of all GOP candidates or potential candidates).
Strongly unfavorable: 0 percent (only candidate in GOP field to have 0 percent "unfavorable").
Name recognition: 48 percent (up 8 points in a single month).

Total favorability: 77 percent (highest in entire GOP field).

funny video

Dayton Wants a shutdown... and this proves it...

Crazy eyes, bipolar-alcoholic nutjob Mark Dayton (I think he might also be manic, believe me I would know, but thats another story) wants to shutdown the government. There is a devestating article in the star-trib op-ed section today that proves this.
First I'm going to show a picture of our disturbed governor...



Gov. Mark Dayton released his plan for a state government shutdown earlier this week, outlining the staff and services that his administration considers essential. The plan was filed in Ramsey County District Court, since the courts will play a major role in any shutdown planning.

While the governor's office says it considers all government services to be essential at some level, the shutdown plan includes only those "critical services to protect the lives and safety of Minnesotans."

The administration also emphasizes that the courts will ultimately determine which services are "critical." But the shutdown recommendations offer a telling glimpse of this administration's priorities and motives.

Dayton's plan is appalling -- not only for the services it deems "critical" but, more important, for those it does not. For example, the governor plans to stop all aid payments to schools.

Additionally, health care providers who serve Minnesotans on medical assistance will also go without payment. And at a legislative hearing this week, an administration official acknowledged that bridge assessments also did not make Dayton's list, apparently failing to meet the governor's "critical service" standard.

The clear strategy: Make any government shutdown hurt as much as possible, as quickly as possible, and as broadly as possible in order to coerce legislators into accepting Dayton's tax hike proposal.

Of course, the Dayton administration would never admit that. Instead, it insists that the state Constitution leaves it no choice but to stop paying health care providers and nursing homes, to stop aid payments to schools, and to take other devastating measures.

According to Rep. Ryan Winkler, a leading DFL voice on all things shutdown, it would be unconstitutional for the state to spend money on virtually anything if a budget deal is not reached by July 1. Winkler says "any spending without appropriation by law is not constitutional."

The Dayton administration has taken a similar stance.

(Of course, another problem with this argument is the fact that the Legislature passed a balanced budget that would have made appropriations for all state services had Dayton not vetoed it.)

Dayton is hiding behind the state's courts and Constitution to justify a cynical and draconian plan motivated more by politics than principle. For evidence, contrast Dayton's shutdown plan with those that preceded it.

Contingency planning for a government shutdown is nothing new to this state. Gov. Tim Pawlenty developed one prior to the state's 10-day partial shutdown in 2005, and Gov. Jesse Ventura planned for a shutdown that was ultimately averted in 2001.

A comparison of the plans is telling. Dayton has deemed as "critical" not only his media and communications staff, but also staff at his official residence. Among those employed at the governor's mansion are Dayton's chef and gardener.

In 2001, by comparison, Ventura planned to all but shutter the mansion. Aid payments to schools? They were included in the Ventura and Pawlenty plans.

Bridge assessments? They were included in the Ventura and Pawlenty plans. Health care? Again, the Dayton administration is alone in its recommendation to stop paying those who provide care for vulnerable Minnesotans.

Dayton's omissions are especially glaring in light of some of the services included in his plan. The state's dentistry board would continue to operate under a Dayton shutdown. Maintenance at Giant's Ridge resort would also continue.

And while Dayton does not plan to pay those who provide health care for vulnerable Minnesotans, he does plan to pay those who care for the state's bison herd.

Dayton's shutdown plans may soon be a moot point. Legislative leaders offered a new proposal to the governor Thursday, offering to remove more than $200 million in tax relief from their budget if Dayton agrees to drop his demand for a tax hike.

Perhaps the two sides are finally approaching a final agreement on how to operate this state for the next two years. Maybe on July 1, instead of preparing for a devastating shutdown, Minnesotans will be planning a relaxing July 4 weekend.

For the sake of the many Minnesotans who would suffer most under a government shutdown, let's hope so.

Life gets better, for everyone...

There is a thing going around called "it gets better" to encourage gay teens from other gays that life gets better. But why limit it to that? My life was hell from 11-15 and it did get better and continues to but I'm not gay, never have been. So where is the heterosexual teen to turn to? Well John Cheese of Cracked.com puts it into better terms than I ever could.

In the last year you've probably heard "It gets better" used as a motto to encourage gay teens who've been the victims of bullying. This is not a rebuttal of that, because I am not an asshole. What I do want to do is expand that message to everyone that age, whether you have a bully problem or not.
I figure it's time, as I tend to write about dark and often brutally depressing subjects, like how I was a smoldering drunk for over half of my life and how much my parents sucked at being parents. But I do it for a reason. I figure there are a lot of people in the same situation who feel like they're alone. That's always the worst part about having a shitty life in your teens or 20s, feeling like everyone else in the world has it figured out but you.
So, as a man with a truly shitty past, let me say that it's not just a slogan. It does get better. Specifically ...

#5.The Money Situation Will Improve (Even if it Doesn't)

I'm not saying you'll be rich when you grow up. I'm saying it's really not about money. It's about freedom.
My girlfriend and I recently broke into the middle class after years of living one paycheck away from homelessness. And when I say "years" I mean all the years from age 15 to age 36. It was never easy, and often was the emotional equivalent of being on the receiving end of a never-ending gang fuck by a herd of Flavor Flavs.

But even at the lowest point of that bottomless pit of gold-plated testicles and giant clock necklaces, I wouldn't have traded it for a chance to be 15-years-old again. Why? Because at this stage of your life, you finally have some control over the situation. And when we talk about things getting better, this is at the heart of it.
As a kid, you just have to sit back and take it, not fully understanding why you're living the way you are. You're dependent on your parents' decisions and actions, whether they lead to bankruptcy or a new swimming pool. A lot of that pressure you're feeling in your teens and 20s is really just powerlessness. You feel like instead of driving the car, you're tied up in the trunk.
When you get out on your own, your financial future is yours, and you can steer that bastard where you want it to go. It's not easy, but even when it's hard there is something liberating about the fact that even if you crash our proverbial car through the front window of a liquor store, it was your decision.
And just to make sure you didn't skip over the "it's not easy" part: If you think "it gets better" means you can sit back and wait for a naked genie to fart cash into your living room, it will not. "It gets better" doesn't mean life lets up, it means you no longer have to submit to it. Not like when you're a kid, when your parents can divorce without your consent or make you change schools or make you get a stupid haircut. When you're an adult, you can get pissed and swing back.
Please, don't wait as long as I did to learn that lesson. My entire adolescent life was spent in poverty because my parents gave up and just accepted that life was a spiked enema, and they just had to bend over and take it. They made no effort to improve their situation, and so that's the lesson my siblings and I took with us when we got out on our own. "There is no escaping your financial fate."
I didn't push back until I was forced to. After 14 years of working an incredibly insufficient, shitty job, my back finally said, "Fuck this," and I was physically unable to do it anymore. I had nothing to go to. No backup plan. No savings. No family to turn to. And then I realized that I did in fact have skills that people would pay me to perform.When I wasn't writing, I was putting in applications all over town. In the next town. In towns 30 minutes away. I applied to places online. When there was no gas in the truck, I walked to put in more applications. I swung harder. There are some days that I write for 16 straight hours, knowing that everything I just typed will be deleted and replaced with a completely different idea, or rejected outright. And that's OK because the success or failure is mine, not somebody else's. You can't put a price on that.
#4.You Will Find Someone

There's a human trait that can sometimes be incredibly beneficial to growth, while at the same time devastating to morale. And that's the desire to have something right fucking here, right goddamn now. If you point that urgency toward something like getting a better job or a promotion, it can be a powerful tool. That urgency is what made all human civilization possible.
It's not so hot when you're lonely and want a companion -- especially when you're young and watching all of your friends joining the boob buffet and you're still alone every weekend. I've seen over and over in my life, people (including myself) who sink into depression because they don't feel that they're ever going to find love. So they look, and look, and look. Depending on who you are, you'll try bars, grocery stores, libraries, online dating services, friends of your mother. Then you latch onto the very first person who pays you any attention, even if they're not right for you. Because, shit, what if nobody else ever comes along?
Then months or years later, you find yourself lonely again, or worse: in a catastrophically bad relationship that you're afraid to leave. "It's better to be in this shitty hookup than to be alone," you'll tell yourself, knowing on some level that you're full of shit. Eventually you get to the point where you blame yourself. "I'm too fat. Nobody will ever love me." "I have this third arm growing out of my forehead. I have no chance." What is hard to realize from that state of mind is that it's the desperation itself that's screwing you. If you're trying too hard, people can smell that a mile away. That in itself is ass-repellant.
I'm not sure I've ever met someone who went their whole life without a "significant other." But I've met plenty of people whose dates took an abrupt halt when they let slip with, "God, before you came along, I was just close to putting a gun to my temple and- oh, the steak is finally here!"
You have to relax. It turns out some lessons taught by romantic comedies aren't full of shit: Concentrate on taking care of yourself first, because 90 percent of a relationship's success is a matter of maturing into the type of person other people want to be around.
If you're young (in high school or college) you don't even know who you are yet. Those early, failed relationships, or lack of a relationship, do not doom your prospects for romance for the rest of your life. Hell, at this point it wouldn't even matter if you met the love of your life -- you haven't even fully become the person who will eventually have something to offer them. Getting down about success with romance at this point is like giving up on a team in the preseason. In your early 20s, your starting players haven't even come off the bench yet.
But this still applies later in life -- I got divorced after a 10 year marriage, and found myself right back in that same, desperate place, scared of being alone. I didn't find anyone until I decided to stop worrying about that and start worrying about making less of a mess of my life. It makes sense, looking back -- when you're in that desperation mode, you put up fronts, and try to be the person you think the guy or girl wants. And that may work for one night, but when you both settle down, that outer "first impression" shell disappears, and you turn into you. Suddenly, you're "not the person I knew when we first met." And they're right. Because the person they met wasn't you.
If you get more comfortable with yourself, you stop trying so hard, you get more relaxed and don't feel like you have to work so hard to hide your true self. You don't stop looking for someone, I don't mean that; you just stop hating yourself so hard for not finding them. I know it sounds like a Catch-22, but it's the lack of self-hatred that will make you attractive.

#3.High School is NOT the Best Years of Your Life

I'm not going to sugar coat this: Adults tell you that high school is the best time you'll ever have because they've forgotten what it was like. They just remember the part where they didn't have to worry about bills, and their hindsight becomes so focused and narrow that it couldn't see the period at the end of this sentence.
The truth is, for many if not most of us, high school is one of the most difficult times you'll ever live through. At that age, you're expected to act like an adult while gaining none of the benefits of adulthood. You are criticized for virtually everything you do by just about every adult in your social and family circle. You're expected to start holding up responsibilities, but under their rules.
Everything I said above about how you need to be yourself and grow into a fully formed human being before your life can really start? Those teen years don't make it easy. If you look at porn, you have to hide it. If you hang out with friends that your parents don't approve of, you have to cover it up. When you go out, you have to be home by their set schedule. The house is decorated their way. You eat what they cook. You dress to their standards. You lose every argument because "You're only 16, you don't know what you're talking about yet."
And the entire time you're dealing with all of this stress, your body is fucking with you from the inside out, blasting you with hormones and chemicals that you've never experienced in your entire life until right now. You're sexually awkward because you don't have much, if any, experience. If you're not ready for sex, you're made to feel like an outcast, and you're instantly ostracized from certain social groups. It is terrifyingly hard. Some people don't make it through. You fucking will. Why?
In just a few years, you'll be on your own. Maybe you'll go to college or maybe you'll start work right away. Either way, you will, for the first time in your life, be the master of your own domain. You'll come home from a hard day's work and throw your pants on the floor because they're your pants. It's your floor. Your rules. And as you spend the rest of your pantsless day, relaxing on your self-made pantscarpet, there's not a goddamn thing anyone can do about it.
Why? Because...

#2.Until You're On Your Own, You Don't Know What Freedom Is

First of all, don't look at your parents boring lives and assume that being an adult means living according to their template. No, you don't have to ditch the video games and take up a "grown up" hobby like golf if you don't feel like it. See, once you're an adult, you get to decide.
Want to stay up until 4 a.m. on a Wednesday? Go for it. Want to eat straight whipped cream right out of the container? Have at it. Adulthood is being able to get into your car at 2 a.m. and just drive for no reason at all. It's growing past being dragged to Mom's church every Sunday and being able to decide for yourself what you want to believe. It's eating pie for supper. It's choosing your own friends and buying your own clothes. It's sitting three feet from the TV screen, just because you fucking can. It's watching a movie for no other reason than it has a lesbian sex scene with Natalie Portman.
That's not to say that there are no repercussions for doing those things, but by God this is your life now, and you have the right to learn those lessons in any way you choose. You own those repercussions. They're yours, no one can take them from you.
For instance, almost everyone I've ever met -- and I've lived in six major cities in the United States -- complains that they "have to get out of this shitty town." I heard it in small-town Illinois, I heard it in Los Angeles, I heard it in Minneapolis. There are like two dozen hit rock songs from the 80s on that subject. Well, as an adult, you have every right and every opportunity to make that happen. You might fuck it up and wind up living in your car, but it was your doing. That freedom is the most powerful tool you'll ever own, and it's exactly what enables you to continue growing. And you will grow.
Yes, you'll have problems. But they'll be your problems. And besides, what would you do without them? The problems are what get you out of bed in the morning. They're what makes succeeding at things such a goddamned rush. You can't be a dragon slayer without dragons.
People talk about a "real world" after graduation, as if that's when the "real" stress starts. And in some ways, they're right. But nothing takes away from the feeling of being at the wheel, doing things on your own terms. Besides, there's something you should know about the "real world" ...

#1.The World isn't as Bad as You Think

When you're a kid, your parents shelter you from the worst of what's really going on in the world. As you get older, your worldview changes and expands. You start to think outside of your own town and social circle. You'll see a metric fuckload of bad news. Violence, government scandals, wars over seemingly petty bullshit. At some point (maybe later in high school but most seem to save it for the college years) you'll get cynical. "Why should I live in this world when it's so shitty?" Or later, "How can I bring a child into this living hell?"
We forget that what is happening now is the opposite of what your parents did. They sheltered you from bad news, but the news media shelters you from good news. They literally filter it out; among all of this horrible information coming out of the nightly news, there is so much good that goes unreported because it doesn't get the same ratings.
But as for the bad shit, there has to come a point where you realize the same thing I've touched on over and over again in this article: As an adult, you are now part of the world and you do have some power to change it. As a kid, you didn't have the power to change shit.
The reason you need to live in a world with all of this shitty news is because that world needs you to help fix it. The reason you can bring a child into this life is because when you pass on your morals and beliefs to them, that's one more soldier on the field to fight for the good side.
Chances are you're not going to show up and disarm a bomb at the last second on a plane filled with a hundred innocent people. But you can absolutely donate some trivial amount of money to make sure some farmer in some oppressed country can get medicine to his family so that they can help him harvest the crops that will in turn feed entire villages.
Life gets better because you're going to make it better. Because you'll have the power and the freedom to make it better.
It's incredibly difficult for a teenager in the throes of angst or a college kid knee-deep in debt and stress to see any of that. Depression is like that. It shrinks your view of the world, it chokes off the horizon. You feel like you're being tea-bagged by life -- its hairy ass cheeks planted firmly over your eyes so you can't see anything else.
Don't mistake those ass cheeks for the whole world. The world is actually out there, beyond that ass, and time and effort will make that clear. You have to survive it first though. I promise you, it gets better.

Dayton Wants a shutdown...

From Freedom Dogs...

Derek's post here indicates the possibility of a plan on part of the DFL and Dayton to shut down our state government and blame the Republicans. Yesterday, I received another letter supporting the same idea - in other words, no "negotiation" with the DFL will work.

This is the email I received. Underlining and bold are mine. [comments are also mine]

Clients and friends,

We just received fairly reliable information from the Administration that there is a good chance that the Governor's shutdown plan will include terminating payments to both health plans and health care providers for all government programs effective July 1. We believe that the decision may be that, even though eligibility for programs will continue, providers and health plans will not be paid for providing their services and coverage. The intent appears to be to have an immediate, strong impact of the shutdown to create the greatest possible pain and resulting pressure on the Legislature to resolve the dispute. [A planned attack on our legislators and the still-working people of MN - that is, Dayton will only want a tax increase - those who believe this is only on the rich will have a very pricey awakening]

Many of you would be seriously, if not fatally, damaged by an extended period of time with no payments under government programs. For this reason, we are planning to work with other health care organizations to try to plan and launch an aggressive media, grassroots and lobbying campaign directed toward legislators who are swing votes in overcoming the deadlock and to maintain as much health care program funding as possible. [So pressure the legislature to spend money we don't have; let Dayton increase taxes on MN; where will this money come from?]

We are organizing a meeting for next week and will send you an invitation and more details as soon as we can. We are also asking for data from DHS and other sources to quantify the impact of the vetoed HHS bill by county and hope to be able to share the data at the meeting so that advocacy efforts can be supported by data on the impact on each legislator's district.

If you are aware of any data or analysis on the impact of the HHS bill, please forward it to me. Also, if you have seen some effective communications messages and personal stories that you think are especially effective, please share them with me, too.

This past Monday, June 6, I was told Governor Dayton was a "no-show" at a scheduled state meeting to discuss the budget with the MN Senate. Yesterday, after hearing a panel of Republican representatives, we were told that Governor Dayton has not given his commissioners any negotiating power. They go to hearings in St. Paul but can't day or do anything.

Why does it appear that the "party of the people" is out destroy business, tax the daylights out of everyone else and hurt the very people they claim they want to help? IMO, control, control, control but to what end?

What can you do?

Support your legislators - "Hold the line!"

Write to your local paper - Dayton and his people are now playing with people's lives. There is enough money to keep these places going - Dayton simply wants more.



Stand strong legislative Republicans!

weep for my generation...

Look I know this thread was on a videogame site but still, very disheartening to say the least...

http://www.escapistmagazine.com/forums/read/18.287757-Overpopulation-Resources-running-out-What-do-we-do-about-these-things

Got to see it to believe it...

Its always nice when liberals show their true colors. They hate free speech, well speech that they don't like at least. What happened to dissent being the highest form of patriotism?

Video: DC Liberals Sign Petition to Ban Conservative Websites

Earthquake "predicted" for tomorrow in Italy...

Normally stuff like this is just laughed off but I am intrigued by this. There was this seismologist in Italy that predicted that Italy would be hit by a 'Big One' on May 11, 2011. The odd thing about the prediction is he made it 96 YEARS AGO. Unusual yes but I'd thought I'd post it on the (very) outside chance this actually happens. From the Telegraph...

By Nick Pisa in Rome 4:21PM BST 10 May 2011
Businesses have reported requests from one in five people to have time off work and many are also keeping children away from school and heading to the beach or country for the day.
Romans are taking it so seriously that local newspapers have even been publishing survival guides with tips of what to do – if – the ground starts to tremble.
The panic has been fanned by Facebook, Twitter and text messages around a prediction by Raffaele Bendani, a seismologist who forecast in 1915 that a "big one" would hit Rome on Wednesday.
He is also said to have predicted other earthquakes which hit Italy during the last hundred years before his death in 1979.
Massimo La Rocca, headmaster of a school in the Trastevere district, said: "We have had quite a few parents calling in and saying they will not be sending their children in."I've told them the school will remain open and there is nothing to be scared about but they are adamant – although this is not a justifiable absence for a pupil."
A barman named Massimo said: "People have been talking about this for the last week. I know dozens who are taking the day off – I'm going to sleep in the camper van with the wife to be on the safe side."
Bendandi believed movement of plates and therefore earthquakes were the result of the combined movements of the planets, the moon and the sun and perfectly predictable.
In 1923 he predicted a quake would hit central Italy on January 2 the following year – he was wrong by two days.
For his work Bendandi was even given a knighthood by Fascist dictator Benito Mussolini – and ordered not to make any more predictions on pain of exile as officials feared he would create immense panic.
However seismologists have been quick to step in and say his theories are without any scientific proof and despite his claims earthquakes are completely unpredictable.
Seismologist Alessandro Amato, who works at the Italy's National Geophysical and Volcanology Institute, said:"There is absolutely no evidence to say that an earthquake will hit Rome on 11th May and we have told that to the hundreds of people who have called.
"There is a possibility that on the day in question the country as a whole will have an average of 30 or so tremors but that is perfectly normal and the figure we expect.
"It is not scientifically possible to predict the exact date that an earthquake will occur and that's why we are holding these open days at the Institute to better inform people."
An estimated 20 million people live at risk from earthquakes in Italy, which is also home to some of the most active volcanoes in Europe.
The Eurasian and African plates meet along a line which runs through North Africa and crosses the Mediterranean near south Italy and Greece. As a result, two main fault lines cut across the Italian peninsula. Memories are still vivid of an earthquake in the central Italian city of L'Aquilam which lies to the north of Rome, in 2009, which killed 300 people.

Team America - America Fuck Yeah

After the Bin Laden killing, I... can't... resist...